Love... Problem starter!

Went to KL with Man, and what i have discovered is that he is kinda selfish at times. He still don't know what he needs to improve. I know what i have to improve on... My love for stupid low life like him. Why can't i meet with successful, rich and educated man....? My love is hopeless. My love is cast out to the one person that i thought going to be happy with. He is just like my father, one thing that i am afraid. He don't like to be romantic. He brags about loving his past girlfriend, and saying that she is beautiful, she is a mother, always at home, but the only thing that stop his relationship with her is because of her infidelity and she being a Muslim. He couldn't be married to her even is he wanted it. He will never take the risk, or the extra trouble in his life. I hate it when he just gives up in life, why can't he be consistence in his life,.... there is a lot that i can write about a person's weakness... in life, in relationship, but soes it makes any change if this is not read by him? who am i to judge? people say.... people say a lot of things when they are in denial. I love Man always, i hate that when love just bliinds everything.
All this time, why cant he just spend some money on me? Why can't he buys me gift just like other boyfriend does to his girlfriend? Why can't he just pampered me like his nieces or nephew? why can't he treat me lovingly in front of his friends? Boy brought his girlfriend, introduce her properly, he hold her like he never leave her , in the train, in the shopping mall, took lovely picture with her... why can't i have the same treatment too....? I left behind, left alone, i don't like it at all. I hate my love live.. why can't he just be normal for once? my last change for him will be on our anniversary. He better treat me right or the love will eb as thin as ice. There is no use to it anymore. I will show him how much i should be treasured....